Same scenario... Same hurtful feelings when special people just come and suddenly go without saying goodbye... When we will get use of this feelings... Be strong... But how...

I am sorry.. Who know who you are... Im sorry..

60 seconds with HIM...

Another sleepless night just passed... Today I need to face another challenge/trial that I wanted to escape but I cannot... I know I am very persistent asking You the same question everyday... Please don't get tired... Don't get annoyed... I know You will not... That's how loving, self-less You are...      I've just talked to You last night and here I am talking to You again... Thank You coz You never get tired of listening... You're always there when I need someone to talk to... Been with this thing before but i am still nervous and afraid... I dont know what awaits me... Will it be good or bad? Please give me the courage and strength to accept it... But whatever it will be... Lord, I surrender my whole life to you, the past, the present, and the future. In sickness and in health, in life and in death, I belong to You..

Another lonely and tiring day has passed...
And I do not know until when it will gonna last...
An every day battle where I cannot win...
I can't even remember why and when does it begin.

Wondering why the world to me is never kind...
A question and the answer is no where to find...
If it is a nightmare please wake me up from sleeping...
I am already drowning, creeping and weeping.

The  gray sky is getting more darker tonight...
The rain and the tears are again near to reunite...
Pain is hugging, I am bleeding, tearing and shaking...
Please let the sunshine in when I wake up the next morning.

Where are you my angel, will you please hold my hand...
Fly me away  with you and bring me in Neverland...
Please stay with me and calm my shattered heart and mind...
And please tell me that you will never ever leave me behind.


--JMS--

Nothing lasts...

Savor the moment.. Coz it will not lasts forever... Everything in life are just borrowed... Everything will eventually come to an end... Even memories that you can only keep is fleeting...

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I try to smile to hide the tears
I have to laugh to cover the fears
To show the world that I am strong
Make them believe that there's nothing wrong.

But in the corner of my eyes
I can't see nothing but darkness
From the depth of my heart
I can't feel nothing but emptiness.

I'm goin' crazy, I'm losing my sanity
Why don't heaven give me a little mercy
What I only want is to be happy
Live with full of love, live without worries.

My soul is weary living in pain
I'm already sick, waiting in vain
The little hope I'm holding now is fading
Tired of the battle I am fighting.

---JMS---

Un individuo en el espejo (Reflection)

A familiar face was staring straight back at me. It's been a long time since the last time I saw him crying. And now in front of me, I clearly see his tears kept falling frm his eyes...streaming down on his cheeks. In silence, I heard him uttered his pain, kept on asking why he got the worst luck in the world. He paused for a while then finally wipe his tears and shrug his head and slowly walk away… God… why I also felt all of his pain and burden… tears also fell in my eyes… till I finally realized that I am standing in front of the mirror… staring at my own reflection…

Here in the dark, tears kept falling from my eye
How I wish, all that I heard was just a lie
And coz of the pain, here I am almost die
I have made up my mind, I have to say goodbye.

Goodbye...

The vision is not clear
Voices cannot be hear
Can’t help for the growing fear
It seems that the end is near.

No matter how hard I tried
Tears cannot be hide
For so long that I cried
Sadness cannot be denied.

My life is out of tune
I’m having a less fortune
All I have to do is to wait
What’s written on my fate.

For those who love me true
I wanna say thank you.
For those who makes me feel blue
You know that I love you true.

Some good things never last
The time is running so fast.
There’s one thing that I want you to remember
That all of you live in my heart forever.

--JMS--

Just a thought....

me siento que perdido... me siento abajo de... alli soy muchos de la pregunta dentro de mi mente... que repentinamente entristecia... entonces este poema vine repentinamente en mi mente...

A lot of pain, a lot of hurt
Things that can break you apart.
Sometimes it can make you cry
And can't help you from asking why.

In a world that's so unsure
Nobody is secure
In a life that's so cruel
Tell me how can you stay cool.

How can you embrace without fears?
When can you sleep without tears?
Some questions playing on your mind
Where answers are really hard to find.

But in a world of real fantasy
Confusion has no place to see.
A wondrous world where I like to be
A place where heart and mind are free.

I wanna close my eyes and feel the eternity
I want dreams to be my reality.
I don't care if they'll call me a dreamer
Coz' I know that there, I can hold you forever.

---JMS--

You Are The Reason

Pleaseeeeeeeeee... somebody help me to find this song... i badly miss to hear it again... send me a msg. kung cno man may mp3 nito... nanawagan na po.. maawa na... lol! hahaha! or if u want trade tayo... igagawa ko kau ng music code for ur website... man! i'm totally desperate!

How can I forget
The longings of my heart
It's you I think of night and day
I know I couldn't touch you
I know I couldn't hold you
Though I wish I really could just care for you

You are the reason the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish and live for
Give me an answer show me the way
You're breakin' me leaving me in pain

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night I can hear you
My thoughts are all about you
Alive and true to me
But now I really have you only in my dreams

You are the reason the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish and live for
Give me an answer show me the way
You're breakin' me leaving me in pain

Lovin' you changes everything
It's given me strength and it's all because of you

You're the burning flame
In my heart and in my mind
In the silence of the night I can hear you
My thoughts are all about you
Alive and true to me
But now I really have you only in my dreams

You are the reason the seasons of my life
You're everything I wish and live for
Give me an answer show me the way
You're breakin' me leaving me in pain..

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Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.

And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.

And he rang mine but we were younger then,
And now we are busy, tired men.
Tired of playing a foolish game,
Tired of trying to make a name.

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him."
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.

Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell them. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.

Life Is Never Easy

Ako ay naligaw sa kung saan... at nabasa ulit ang poem na ito... someone gave me this poem as an answer in one of my posted poem... i forgot to thank her.. that's why.. post ko n lng dito...

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clever_lyn •reply Dec-17-04@10:17PM
pwede b bigyan dn kta ng poem!!!!it is entitled "life is never easy"here it goes:


Life is never easy,
But sometimes we choose not to see
Caught up in our reason,
Denying that true feeling are meant to be free

And we say things we don't mean,
We do things we don't even know what it mean
Trying hard not to care,
But sometimes needing to share

Why are you afraid to lend a hand?
For all you know, there's no reason to be afraid.
Fear of the unknown is a disease that often kills
So,don't let anything prevent you from your will..

why can't u take ur risk...if u luv her fight 4 her... it is ONLY a BF not her HUBBY...so there's a chance.

Men Are from Mars, Women Are from Venus

Imagine that men are from Mars and women are from Venus. One day long ago the Martians, looking through their telescopes, discovered the Venusians. Just glimpsing the Venusians awakened feelings they had never known. They fell in love and quickly invented space travel and flew to Venus.

The Venusians welcomed the Martians with open arms. They had intuitively known that this day would come. Their hearts opened wide to a love they had never felt before.

The love between the Venusians and Martians was magical. They delighted in being together, doing things together, and sharing together. Though from different worlds, they reveled in their differences. They spent months learning about each other, exploring and appreciating their different needs, preferences, and behavior patterns. For years they lived together in love and harmony.

Then they decided to fly to Earth. In the beginning everything was wonderful and beautiful. But the effects of Earth's atmosphere took hold, and one morning everyone woke up with a peculiar kind of amnesia-selective amnesia!

Both the Martians and Venusians forgot that they were from different planets and were supposed to be different. In one morning everything they had learned about their differences was erased from their memory. And since that day men and women have been in conflict.

Without the awareness that we are supposed to be different, men and women are at odds with each other. We usually become angry or frustrated with the opposite sex because we have forgotten this important truth. We expect the opposite sex to be more like ourselves. We desire them to "want what we want" and "feel the way we feel."

We mistakenly assume that if our partners love us they will react and behave in certain ways--the ways we react and behave when we love someone. This attitude sets us up to be disappointed again and again and prevents us from taking the necessary time to communicate lovingly about our differences. We mistakenly assume that if our partners love us they will react and behave in certain ways--the ways we react and behave when we love someone.

Men mistakenly expect women to think, communicate, and react the way men do; women mistakenly expect men to feel, communicate, and respond the way women do. We have forgotten that men and women are supposed to be different. As a result our relationships are filled with unnecessary friction and conflict.

Clearly recognizing and respecting these differences dramatically reduce confusion when dealing with the opposite sex. When you remember that men are from Mars and women are from Venus, everything can be explained.


.... men mistakenly offer solutions and invalidate feelings while women offer unsolicited advice and direction. Through understanding our Martian/Venusian background it becomes obvious why men and women unknowingly make these mistakes. By remembering these differences we can correct our mistakes and immediately respond to each other in more productive ways.

....while Martians tend to pull away and silently think about what's bothering them, Venusians feel an instinctive need to talk about what's bothering them.

... men are motivated when they feel needed while women are motivated when they feel cherished ....men need to overcome their resistance to giving love while women must overcome their resistance to receiving it.

... men and women have different needs for intimacy. A man gets close but then inevitably needs to pull away.

... men and women give the kind of love they need and not what the opposite sex needs. Men primarily need a kind of love that is trusting, accepting, and appreciative. Women primarily need a kind of love that is caring, understanding, and respectful.

===John Gray===

Love Again... (Just a post)

Love again?!?! grrrrrr... my fave topic to post huh! obviously.. all of my posted topics here are all about love and hurts... awe! john... john... john... "KULITS MO" ...pero por extraño que pueda parecer el ... toda la situación mencionada en casi de mis postes pasó y todavía pasándome... (spanish ko para di nyo maintindihan... ahahaha!) PEACE...

If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have 2 choices, either tells what you feel and let the love take place of forever or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, get what I want... then I realized it was you, too bad coz' it's you I can't have... Love can never be so beautiful without friendship...

Have you really cared for someone more than you expected? Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain? Will you keep on loving him/her when he/she whispers someone else's name? When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but investing. If you love, you must prepare to accept pain. For if you expect happiness, you are not loving but using...

How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?

It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose someone you love with your useless pride. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who chooses to love me.... and you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me.

Love may leave your heart like a shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again... like a jigsaw puzzle ... it requires time, endurance and patient to fixed the whole picture...

Mystery of Love

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and some love fails. You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience.

Love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its time, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

Too often, when love comes to two people, they try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away. When they fall out of love or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was.

They want the answers where there are no answers. They want to know what is wrong with them, or they try to get their love to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love will bloom again. They blame their circumstances. They blame each other. They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in the sea of misery.

You need to treat what love brings you with kindness. If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in that person's heart. If you find someone in love with you towards whom you feel no love, feel honored that love came and called at your door. But gently refuse the gift that you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with you. And all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives are very different.

If you fall in love with another who falls in love with you and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know it in time, but time itself will choose the moment.

Remember this and keep this in your heart. You don't choose love, love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it in all its mysteries when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it to you. Give it to others who seem poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

Love has its own time, own season and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe or coerce to or reason it into staying. If it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your love, there is nothing you should do. Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will surely come again.

I'll Be Over You...

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people’s destiny
Passes by...

I refuse to wait for you any longer. There was a time in my life when I would have saved myself for you alone. In my heart no one else would do. I belonged to no one else but you. That isn't me anymore. My heart finally caught up with my brain and I finally saw that all of it was just nothing but fantasies. Dreams that only I wanted. There was no hope left for us. As each day passed, it became clearer to me that it was never meant to be. We were never meant to be.

I refuse to fight anymore. For several months now, I've been fighting. I've been fighting for our friendship and for us. However, no matter what I do, I seem to be losing. Whenever I feel as if I'm going to buckle down because of the pressure, the thought that somehow maybe you are fighting for us too kept me going. But months have passed, I haven't heard from you. Somehow I finally realized that I was the only one fighting for us. I was doing everything I could possibly can for someone who was and never will be mine.

I refuse to believe that you didn't love me. Somehow, someway, I know that I have a place in your heart. You may not have been able to love me the way I wanted you to love me but I know that even for just a second, you really did love me.

I refuse to lose hope. It may not be you. It maybe someone else. Tears have been streaming down my cheeks for too long but not anymore. I have learned so many things from all this. Things that I felt should have been taught to me some other less painful way but somehow I don't regret it. It made me stronger. It made me look inside myself and really see who I really am and not who I thought I was. Hope kept me going. The hope for better things to come, the same hope that one day I will finally be over you... I will finally get over you...

It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin’
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I’ll be over you...

Mystery and Discovery

it's very weird how people fall in love... at first they are not fully aware that they are falling in love with each other... and eventhough they know what they are feeling with each other they just keep on dreaming and ignoring the fact that they do start to fall in love with someone... but the painful part is that they can't be together... yeah... i know it's pretty sad...

you know that you love this someone and that she/he feel the same thing... but they can't be together... because of so many complications and the so called "platonic friendship" will be compromise... i just had this weird thing... i fell in love with someone who's the total oppositeness of my ideal someone... but though she is... i feel that if im not with this person... i know in my heart something is missing... "parang siyang bagoong sa kare kare kong buhay"... sad as it may seem... we just can't be together... coz we're both committed... she's already engaged and i'm in a relationship... if this is one of fate's cruel game... i hope that someday... we'll be together... if not in this lifetime perhaps in the next one. i just realize that love is the greatest mystery in life but the greatest discovery is how much you can love that person...


ooopppsss... i just read this and posted it here (wala lang)... dont know if i copied it correctly... i think na rephrase ko na... well.. i agreed w/ that coz it happened to me... or should i say.. it's happening to me?!?!... (hahaha!)... hmmmn... peace... wala na akong masabi... until next time...