I'll Be Over You...

Some people live their dreams
Some people close their eyes
Some people’s destiny
Passes by...

I refuse to wait for you any longer. There was a time in my life when I would have saved myself for you alone. In my heart no one else would do. I belonged to no one else but you. That isn't me anymore. My heart finally caught up with my brain and I finally saw that all of it was just nothing but fantasies. Dreams that only I wanted. There was no hope left for us. As each day passed, it became clearer to me that it was never meant to be. We were never meant to be.

I refuse to fight anymore. For several months now, I've been fighting. I've been fighting for our friendship and for us. However, no matter what I do, I seem to be losing. Whenever I feel as if I'm going to buckle down because of the pressure, the thought that somehow maybe you are fighting for us too kept me going. But months have passed, I haven't heard from you. Somehow I finally realized that I was the only one fighting for us. I was doing everything I could possibly can for someone who was and never will be mine.

I refuse to believe that you didn't love me. Somehow, someway, I know that I have a place in your heart. You may not have been able to love me the way I wanted you to love me but I know that even for just a second, you really did love me.

I refuse to lose hope. It may not be you. It maybe someone else. Tears have been streaming down my cheeks for too long but not anymore. I have learned so many things from all this. Things that I felt should have been taught to me some other less painful way but somehow I don't regret it. It made me stronger. It made me look inside myself and really see who I really am and not who I thought I was. Hope kept me going. The hope for better things to come, the same hope that one day I will finally be over you... I will finally get over you...

It takes some time
God knows how long
I know that I can forget you

As soon as my heart stops breakin’
Anticipating
As soon as forever is through
I’ll be over you...

Mystery and Discovery

it's very weird how people fall in love... at first they are not fully aware that they are falling in love with each other... and eventhough they know what they are feeling with each other they just keep on dreaming and ignoring the fact that they do start to fall in love with someone... but the painful part is that they can't be together... yeah... i know it's pretty sad...

you know that you love this someone and that she/he feel the same thing... but they can't be together... because of so many complications and the so called "platonic friendship" will be compromise... i just had this weird thing... i fell in love with someone who's the total oppositeness of my ideal someone... but though she is... i feel that if im not with this person... i know in my heart something is missing... "parang siyang bagoong sa kare kare kong buhay"... sad as it may seem... we just can't be together... coz we're both committed... she's already engaged and i'm in a relationship... if this is one of fate's cruel game... i hope that someday... we'll be together... if not in this lifetime perhaps in the next one. i just realize that love is the greatest mystery in life but the greatest discovery is how much you can love that person...


ooopppsss... i just read this and posted it here (wala lang)... dont know if i copied it correctly... i think na rephrase ko na... well.. i agreed w/ that coz it happened to me... or should i say.. it's happening to me?!?!... (hahaha!)... hmmmn... peace... wala na akong masabi... until next time...